I am everyday people

In a coffee shop Monday morning, my last day off before returning to work, I received a text that the time sheets for the two young men and one young women I work with as a “job coach” were now due today (Monday), and not tomorrow (today, Tuesday) at the end of the pay period, as was/is the norm. So I got going, walked a bit faster the mile or so home, fudged the time sheets as accurately as I could – my crystal ball to see how many working hours for each tomorrow presently in the hawk shop. Then I got in the car and meandered over to the 163 and off that onto back roads to the office.

In yesterday’s Blog there was a quote from the Zen Roshi Tess Beasley – “Abiding with the wonder of uncertainty.” And the theme of the Sunday Koan gathering – “Allow the world to take care of itself.” These came to me on the drive up, “My” plans skeedaddled with the world taking care of itself. I was listening to Sly and The Family Stone on the drive, and I found myself in the most pleasant of places, a fantasy that going forward – I see you Tuesday, today – I was/and am just going to let the day, the world, take care of itself. All my life up to this morning like a mist behind me. No history to depend on. Anytime ahead, beyond today, entirely uncertain. Like totally, I’m so sure.

None of this is exactly news, or new, and something of “One day at a time” has played a significant role in my life a long, long while now. But, I don’t know. It felt different yesterday. Like, sort of, being teleported from Front Street here in San Diego at eight in the morning and dropped, a moment later, in a Stop and Shop in Lincoln, Nebraska, a “Your on your own, kid,” a fading giggle. “Be back for you at six.”

Abiding with the wonder of uncertainty. Allowing the world to take care of itself.